Zulal, XVII. Aesthete, bibliophile, tea addict and a lover of the arts.
“Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones.”— Nikita Gill, Almost Feelings
Some prep notes I took for a new class, and wandering around my new town. I’m so glad it’s starting to get colder 🍁🍂
“Why do you put your self esteem in the hands of complete strangers?”— Helena Bonham Carter
1.19.18 // friday // new year, new planner
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🍃 21.01.18 🍃 ~ sunday
나만치 해봤다면 돌을 던져
We go hard 우린 겁이 없어 - we are bulletproof pt.1 , bts
being unproductive but i swear im trying to get all my things done in time >< oh wellies the spreads are somewhat easy to make now since i’ve got a theme going on for this month hehe hope you guys like it!
also, do drop my a dm or ask me anything if you want to :) i’d like to know how you guys have been~
self care isnt always lush bath bombs and $20 face masks. sometimes, it’s going to bed at 8pm or letting go of a bad friend. its forgiving yourself for not meeting your impossible standards and understanding you are worth it, nonetheless. self care isnt always luxury, but a mean for survival.
1. I’m still saving my first kiss ( I’m pretty religious so I’ve refrained from potential kiss situations that and I haven’t met someone that I’ve actually wanted to kiss yet)
2. Done this one
3. I’ve been chatting to Eden about life, we hadn’t talked in years so it was like a catch-up of what’s been happening. Eden if you are reading this you are wonderful
4. Done
5. also done
6. I get bored of boys really quickly (I don’t know what this says about my personality to be honest) so if I’ve dumped them there’s definitely a reason and let’s be honest the longest relationship I’ve had was around 4 days so if I had dated anyone twice they would’ve ended up being my longest relationship haha
7. Nope
8. Nope
9. No
10. I’m awfully melancholy at times, but I haven’t been depressed
11. Nope
64. Do I want kids? I definitely do I think I would be a kickass mother. I sometimes find myself thinking about the books I would read my kids to bed, though I think it’s purely for selfish reasons because I love those books so much I need excuses to reread them (the hobbit, the benedict society, a series of unfortunate events) Though I don’t feel like I’m currently at that point of my life being in my early twenties it just feels slightly odd to think about it
65. Get married?
Hopefully yes! I hope to have an emotional connection with someone (it doesn’t come easy for me), if it did happen I think it would be something really special. I would have definitely married Adam Driver if he wasn’t already taken…………..
I really don’t have the patience to do all of them since there are quite a few. I’ll do every fourth prime number haha
2. My cousin called me, I didn’t pick up I was far too sleepy (sleep>everything)
11. I’ve never been drunk so I wouldn’t know
23. Apparently there is mo 23
41. St. Josephs primary school
59. I’m eating nothing which is quite sad really
73. Sensitive or loud? Hmmm that’s hard I’m not too good with overly sensitive people or obnoxiously loud people, but if I had to go with one I’d go with loud
97. I’d definitely go back to an era of princes and knights and all that jazz. Oooh maybe I’d sneak into a masquerade ball! I wouldn’t be too keen on going back eons, uhm I’d like to keep some sort of base comfort you know (again sleep is important and I’m not willing to sleep on rocky ground)
Blackpink - So Hot (freaking hell its so addictive I’m obsessed with the rap verses and the line “were the only gang to run the game in high heels” PLUS THEIR OUTFITS ARE GORGEOUS)
5. Oddly enough I’m really not much of a crying type. I’m not sure why but if I do cry it’s for something that really moves me. It could be something really insignificant for others. I think the last time was when I was watching a show and a little girl blew out her birthday cake candles not knowing that her mother had died (she could see ghosts and only realised when her mother told her). I found that so heartbreaking!
15. I always love making friends, but this year I feel a bit bitter. It frustrates me that some people show absolutely no effort to get to know you. Nowadays I’m not one to put on much of a facade I feel like too often we are forced to pretend to care and that’s just tiring. friendship should be reciprocated!!!!
22. Is it just me or is 22 missing? haha
